"I'm mad at you."

{ Me today, in the mirror. Long winded explanation below... }

The Husband came home the other night & told me a story he had heard on the

 radio of a song writer who was "Doing what she loved & it didn't even appear like work to anyone around her..." 

He then told me, "I'm mad at you." This shocked me, The Husband never says he is mad at me. 

Puzzled I asked him why... To which he replied, 

"I'm mad at you because that is like you. You are creative, you have dreams of this & 

that which involve your creativity, why aren't you doing anything about it?! 

Why aren't you doing something you love to do?

Just DO it! What is holding you back? What are you afraid of?!"

I smiled & got very giddy as well as a bit sad & frustrated with myself. 

It was amazing to feel so supported but at the same time I felt like a big loser that someone 

(especially my husband) noticed my lack of drive & called me out. 

But that is what loving husbands are for, right? 

So, what has been holding me back are a few things, a few typical things we all worry about..

Like most, I naturally fear failure. I also am my own worst critic. 

Both of which, I realize lead to a rather unhealthy paralysis of doing nothing 

about following my dreams. Hence why The Husband was mad. 

I don't blame him, I'm mad at myself because there really is no excuse 

& what is there to loose? Nothing. 

So I'm proud to say that I took the first step of following my dreams

 that I've been talking about for months, if not years... 

I bought my fancy camera that I've been waiting for. Next up is to teach myself how to use it. 

Then to start taking some hopefully really stellar photographs. Then to open a print shop 

& fingers crossed it will be a fruitful venture. 

Then who knows... 

But I do know one thing, I am excited to find out where taking 

this first step & the subsequent steps to follow lead.

Welcome to the my new journey of sorts. I hope it won't bore you to tag along 

& I also hope that when I ask, you'll be really good & honest critics. 

xoxo